Monday, July 31, 2006
The day you left me alone
My day started just right and as expected, there will be someone who will mock me when I enter our classroom. I was having a great time studying with my friend and chatting with them. I knew that she'd just came from a conference of somekind but I didn't expect something so heartbreaking that I can't take so much...
I accused her when I was with JV and Jacob... I said she was something i really don't like, a type of person in the world you wouldn't like but deep inside I was guilty in saying those stupid things (who invented stupidity??).
When I'm with my friends, I always lie and I always say that I don't like her, I hate her, I just want to go into another world be superman and fly away but there's no way I can leave someone like her..
I tried asking myself -- Sholud I just forget all about her?? My alter ego would answer me -- Yes, go and forget her for us to enjoy our life. The first one would answer -- But I like her like her...
The latter would answer -- Can you stand against pain? agony? anger?
It would answer again -- I think I can..
If you have just guessed what kind of freaking life I live, then you'd probably know that I always cry in distress because this brings my demise.
Ok, i won't bother the readers again with these stupid alter ego stuff..
The problem is when I was enjoying our lessons, my classmate who was her friend showed me a picture of her with another guy... That really took a breath out of me...
My heart felt like it was goin' to explode but still, I try to control myself...
continued...
posted - 6:19 PM